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bring it on, stupid network
I'd written a post at the mechanical engineering computing facility around 1pm today, only to find that some error occurred with the stupid dinosaur computer and the post was lost. So now i'm at an impasse. Try to recreate what i wrote, without my muse? The result will doubtless pale in comparison to what I'd written earlier this afternoon.

The gist of the first paragraph was that midterm season has just begun--ahh yes, the warm gushy feeling of impending doom. An unstoppable wave of exams worth 15-20% of my grade :: the tidal wave is over by late November, allowing 2-3 weeks before finals. But, as promised, that's enough about school.

Meanwhile
As for my indecision about the future of my blog, i've decided to take the best of both worlds. Post more entries about anything that happens to be on my mind and pepper those posts with meaningful, probing questions and reflections about the direction of my life in this ever changing, ever perplexing world :: mmmmmm, Reactions (as homer simpson would say).

with fervor
So here's an issue i've brought up before and return to it once again...As for the finish line [term and issue first raised in christian's blog (see link in entry below)], i've decided one can't help but have a goal oriented lifestyle. Living life sans direction is just as much a waste of time as measuring one's accomplishments against a universal meter stick >> success = family, house, spouse.

I know it's perhaps purely fictional for me to generalize and say that the majority of people aim for an altogether uninteresting goal. Drone through the office with weekends as the only light at the end of the tunnel. Perhaps you enjoy your job--but my ideology (or naivete) is that it's possible to live without turning into a droid -- so lost in mortgage payments, credit card debts, material desires -- leaving only a shadow of what you once were :: dreams and a real potential for realizing them.

I'm sounding really idealistic here, but i've got to keep reminding myself of why i'm going for the finish line that is my college degree. Not because i want a nice car and a big house (as so many of my engineering friends desire), but because i need some sort of an income to travel and experience the world. To gain perspective and live an enriching life, full of diverse experiences -- hoping that this path will be made possible through photography.

"Why the hell not?" << my mantra prevails.