>>and there's nowhere in the world i'd rather be.<< selena's "dreaming of you"

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thank/joyful
so this blog begins with a thought that crossed my mind when i saw a girl. She had to have been under five feet tall, her back was very misaligned, her arms swinging slightly above her knees--and i think she was already fully grown|it was clear she had a physical handicap. I'd just come from dance rehearsal, critiquing myself, expecting more, wishing i'd be better. I saw this girl and thought she might have at least once wished to be able to do everything that someone without a disability could do--maybe even dance>>I know this is getting sickeningly cliche, but a lot of those common knowledge bites are truthful and useful.

Anyway, so what am i saying...I should be living life for every moment. Why shouldn't i be learning, sleeping, laughing, dancing, skating, shooting, cherishing. Clearly...i should be working, building my resume, earning a degree<< earning respect. What brings me joy? none of the latter. Ironically, the boring stuff makes the former possible. Live for the sake of living. Not sure how to pull everything off at once, but it's been done>>i think i can i think i can i think i can.

Clueless
Laura and I rented this gem of an Alicia Silverstone film and loved it. I noticed that Cher (alicia's character) didn't just have great fashion sense, but her clothing was timeless. I thought maybe her outfits would be out of style since it'd been a while since i saw the movie, but her clothing was hot because it was its own. Not the hottest "in thing" for that year, just amazing in and of itself. so there lies my goal. i don't want to be on top of all the "now" fashion, i want to find my signature look and be noted for it| i know i'm being superficial now, and maybe i should be above the whole idea of self-image, etc. but i'm not over it and don't care to be for now. Dressing up is fun.